Do I need to Exist?

[Guest chendoh]

I did not know it at the time; but Back arround 1949, my parents felt the need to ennamor themself's of the

magic:

 

one calls procreation.

 

Iwas the offspring of that spawn...yes, I was born in august

Jayqu attributes it to seasonal change.........and the baccus of spring.

 

All I know is that MY birth-date in the northern Hem- equates to.......

 

My conception occuring on or about November, 18th, 1950.......

 

Did it really need to happen?.

I have thought of times that I, mattered

Times that I did not....?

 

I ate the fish you see in my avatar, a trout

My wife Kathleen cound not see the point, But She Did..Take the picture you see.

 

That animal was like no other that I had met. I had fished her for hours..

giving me no respite in the time that I attempted to secure her.

I first found out 'bout her from a friend at work.

 

When I eventually set things in motion

I was at a small brook that held many forms of aquatic life.

 

I have a 7lb 27" brown to my credit.

but this 20" native brook trout seems to be my favorite.

The stream could not of been more than five foot across

 

I tossed underhand into the current....trying to reach the banks....

to see my lure go with the current and up against the rushes was encouraging.

 

It didn't take long when I had a Strike!

First this way then the next; This Being, that I had hooked gave me no recourse, but to hang on and see where she wanted to go.

 

Of course, We had to inspect every inch of the stream banks

She went up

She went down

 

I was on one side of the stream, then the other...after a little bit

I noticed that she did not have as much fight as earlier...and she wanted to hug the banks.

 

I respect that fish, She was still alive when this picture of my avatar was taken.

Jumped outa' my hands a few times.but I had her for this shot.

[Guest chendoh]

There really is no error here..........

 

Even though: I have friends and family, and I love them deeply.

 

I feel that No one, can ever forget their first experience.

 

Did 'ja ever find a turtle in your yard?.....That's good luck!

Did your bait ever bite you?....

[Queso]

cool read. thanks for sharing.

 

Just yesterday I conoed accross the mayakka river and you know what I found on the other side?

 

Dozens of 'gators of all shapes and sizes.

 

So creepy . . the way they poke their eyes out of the water.

 

Twas the first time I saw something face to face that could rip me to shreads and end my life.

 

Paddled back.

[Guest chendoh]

cool read. thanks for sharing.

Your Welcome.

 

I have never been on a Vision Quest, and I felt the need to express my relationship with nature; mentally and physically.

 

Chamu' Se

[Queso]

This is a vision quest.

 

 

sat nam,

[Guest chendoh]

I have studied meditation.......It has hurt me, that I have not kept up....

 

One day I came home from my labors berfore the future Ms.chendoh returned.

 

I opened our home to the freshnest of the summer day and tried to relax.

 

after checking to see if everything was in harmony:

 

I retired to our bedroom and in a few minutes I was able to project myself to a different plane

 

I did not realize how strong this Quest was, until my beloved returned.....

 

I felt her in every movement she made while securing our home in her mind.

When she found me I heard her ask me if everything was allright, but I could not reply and she left me alone because this was not a new experience for her.

 

Later, that evening though, Kathy became worried.

It was longer than she had ever experienced with me, and

I could sense it.

 

I had told her once before...keep repeating my name softly,... slowly, change tempo only shout when it would seem appropriate... after one saw movement.

 

It is an experience I will never forget...

[Queso]

Did you leave your body?

[Guest chendoh]

Did you leave your body?

It felt like I had, but I can not be sure.

I felt her in every movement she made while securing our home in her mind.

 

KaKi, did not have the experience necessary to be my Guide.....

She only knew from me, what to expect.

 

As Our Love Deepend....Our responsibilities grew...and I am as guilty as the next man; To the fact that 'I' allowed my/our relationship to go Where?

 

I feel like a failure, that I was unable to keep up with the 'Old ways'.

 

With the influence of the emerging generations:

Stripping away at my flesh.

 

It would take some 'Doing' on my part but I feel that I could regain what I have lost; with patience and determination.

 

Orby...If I may call you that...

You, as well as any one, know what I mean.

 

Chamu'Se

[Queso]

Experiences like that are very mysterious. It sounds like an OBE but if you aren't sure then there's no way I could be too.

 

Whatever happened, it had to.

Every action has an equal and opposite reaction. You know that.

You can swim, or you can grab a board and surf.

Either way, there's an infinite number of waves passing thru and around us at all times.

They weave in and out with the resonance of a rainbow.

 

Is choice a spined illusion?

 

What happens next?

 

One time I was dancing and had been for hours.

My perspective shot out about 20ft behind me, and I could see myself dancing and I had no control over my body I could see that I was still moving but I was just my mind, behind me, just thinking.

The warp was so fast, and about 10 seconds later, I warped back into my body so fast that it knocked me on the ground.

 

Was such a crazy experience, being able to see myself like that.

 

Many, many mysteries.

 

Do I need to exist? Right now I do! Damian marley's singin' and I wouldn't want to die now.